"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow" - anonymous

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Smiling on the Inside

So I've been on a long road with my weight loss, yo-yo diets galore, and nothing ever seemed to stick. I always gained it back at some point or another.  Last January I looked into having a Gastric surgery, so I started the process then. I started on a high protein, low-carb diet, started exercising more and I started to loose some weight. While completing all the steps to qualify for the surgery, I had lost 20lbs and I felt really great about everything. So I finally had the surgery in July of 2011, where I had the realize band put it in. I was only in the hospital over night, and went home the following afternoon. I was sore for about a week or two, but otherwise healed pretty quickly. Adjusting to the 2 week diet of nothing but liquids grew to be a challenge but I made it through with flying colors.  Then I started back on mushy solid proteins, protein shakes, etc. The only form of exercise I could do was walking, so I tried to do that several times a day, a long with making sure I had about 60 fluid ounces to drink a day. So in all I have lost 70 pounds since my start in January, and I am extremely proud of what I have accomplished in such a short time. Sometimes I do not even recognize myself, I am in a size 16.  I do not remember ever being in that size in my adult life, I know as a teenager I hit that size maybe once.  But for the last month my weight loss has slowed down, and I am not exercising like I should be, hardly any at all to be honest.  I am not eating as much protein as I used to be, kind of slacking on a lot of things. I am not sure what has triggered this slow-down, and slip ups but I need to get myself back on track. I did not come this far to go back to where I was, never again will I allow myself to get that big.  I always ignored what I looked like, never really took in what I had done to myself over the years. But one day, a year ago I looked in the mirror and I mean really looked, and I was so disgusted by what I saw. And I never want to feel like that again, so I am determined now more than ever to get back into shape and live a healthy, happy life with my family. I never want my weight to be a health concern for me again.  Through the years I have suffered from depression, more than likely as a result of my obesity and a few other factors as well.  And though there are days I am sure I look like I am not the happiest person in the world, I know am smiling somewhere on the inside.  The love and support, I have received from my family through this whole process, has somehow brought us all closer and brought me to a happier and healthier place.  I could not have made it through any of this without my husband, children, parents, siblings, and friends.  I am blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life, who inspire me on a daily basis, so I want to take a moment to thank you all for being there for me and above all, loving me for me, no matter what.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Here We Go!

So Here we go, with my first blog post ever! Today has been a jumble of various ups and downs. For Starters my Daughter J, had to miss school due to her ear healing over the backing of her earring. I am finally finding the bottom of the laundry baskets, only to fill them up again. Our lovely dog Tippy, for some reason seems to think she needs to pee on everything lately and she never does this! Today her object of choice was a stuffed penguin that my mother had given to me, needless to say I was not impressed. Sam had an eventful day at Head Start, where he played with play dough and made a boy, a girl and mommy.  I also made extra crispy fish sticks due to my distraction of making this blog, go figure! I am usually pretty good in the kitchen when it comes to preparing just about anything, as long as I do not get distracted! At least I still love myself, family and life after all the ups and downs of today and every other day as well.  Patience is something I must improve upon, as of late, I've run out. Some days I have so much I am not even sure where it came from, other days it's like why can't I just calm down and wait? I had someone ask me once if I was a instant gratification person, and there are some definite cases were I am, others not so much.  If I do not have to wait, I do not see the reason for it.  Other times I can see the benefits of waiting, and do so the best I am able.  I can definitely say this blog is going to be an interesting one, as it will vary on topics often. And I am pretty sure you may get lost in my thought process too, as I do it all the time! I do hope that I can bring some joy, happiness and laughter to those who take the time to read my ramblings.