Laundry and other chores!

For about 2 weeks now, my morning sickness has really kicked in. Mostly it is nausea and gag reflex, not so much vomiting.  I finally talked to my doctor yesterday and got some medicine to help with it, Oh my goodness!  I was so surprised by nurse when she said I could have something for sickness! Now my health insurance on the other hand will only allow me to have 12 pills every 23 days, so I have to use them sparingly. I am hoping that my morning sickness this time, does not last as long as it did with my son, Sam, the whole 9 months.  So Because of all of nausea and gagging, I have hard a really hard time doing laundry, dishes, just about anything around the house. I took the pill this morning when the morning sickness began and rested for a bit. And now I have gotten so much done I am amazed and grateful! No longer does my laundry have to sit in baskets in the kitchen for days until I can handle folding or get help.  

So later on I got to put the clothes away and decided to organize my husbands dresser drawers because it needed it.  I found clothes strewn on the dresser some ended up on the floor, so I picked them up and found some were clean and some were dirty. I shook my head and tossed the clothes in the hamper which filled up on  me so another load to do, lol!  I love my husband dearly but I just wish he could get the dirty clothes to the hamper, but in his defense he works in a uniform and comes home and changes and then uses them for another time because he worn them for what 10 minutes before he went to sleep? So they get forgotten, at least I found them and now the will have them again!  He's not the only one guilty of tossing his clothes places either, my darling 8 year old daughter is one who does that too!  Jolene is so much like me when I was a child it is so not funny!  So I guess from my own messy mistakes as a child I know what to look for, see MOM, being messy as a kid paid off as an adult!    My four year old, Sam, he is great at picking up his clothes, tosses right in the hamper.  Every person is different, and I try to encourage both kids to help pick up toys and other things around the house. Sam is one of the first ones to say I have to go clean that up, upon seeing me doing something.  Jolene hates cleaning just as much as I did as a kid. I need to find some more things to help her organize her toys and things so she find the her things when she wants them and to make clean up easier and faster. 

Hope everyone has a fantastic day! And thanks for reading!!

Hitch Hikers

On my way home from the grocery store yesterday, I encountered a hitch hiker walking on the highway.  I did not stop, but I always slow and check and see if I may know the person.  This time I didn't, and he was going farther than I was going. I was wondering what everyone's thoughts are on hitch hikers.   I have several factors to why I haven't picked up any hitch hikers.  One is that most of the time I have the kids in the car and for me, if I do not know you, I am not willing to subject my child to someone that may be a danger to me or my children.   Another reason is  I am not completely comfortable picking up someone I do not know, especially of the opposite sex. Now I am not being sexist or anything here, just thinking of my safety. I believe it would be a lot easier for a male to over power me than a female.  I also having another reason to be extra cautious now that I am pregnant, to keep my unborn child safe as well.  Now I have picked up a few hitch hikers in my day, but I knew them and they were no threat to me.  Now this man I encountered hitch hiking, seemed perfectly normal to me, but those factors were one of the reasons I just could not stop.  These days you just do not know if it safe to pick up someone off the side of the road. So what do you do?  Do you stop and pick up the hitch hikers? Or do you keep on going, hoping someone will pick them up? 

Another thought that has occurred to me, have you ever had to hitch hike? Would you feel safe getting into some strangers car, if you needed a ride?  I received a ride once when it was raining and cold, I was only about 5 minutes from my house, but it was a nice older lady so I did not see the harm in getting a ride. But in most cases I probably would have said I was fine and kept walking.   I am really curious to see what everyone thinks, so please leave a comment.  And thanks for reading!

I guess I dropped off the map for a while!

So it has been a long time since I posted!  I want to apologize to those people who follow me and forgive myself for not being as committed as I could have been with this. I let life's everyday ups and downs get in the way.

So to recap, I was working for an in-home daycare that was to be expanded into a bigger center but that has taken some time. So I had to go on leave for a bit while the renovations were being completed and hope to start back up again soon.  Also some more exciting news, My husband and I will be expecting our third child in April of 2013! I am very excited, never thought I would want to add to my busy family, but something in me said it was time and so here we are!  I have not taken much time to go further into expanding my interest or knowledge in spirituality but will strive to work harder on that.

Recently I have had some heart-ache with my biological father and I am not sure that is ever really going to change. He left my mother, brother and I when I was 12 months old and was never really there much while growing up. On a better note I have an amazing Step-father who adopted me when I was 3. But that never really took the hurt away of  my "dad" not being there.  I learned to accept him for who he was and tried my best not to take his lies or absence bother me.  We have had a better relationship as I have gotten older and he has gotten to know my two children a little bit. He has always shown more attention to my older brother and I learned to accept that as it was and always started to think it was more because I am a girl and he has less in common with me.  Jim (Bio-Dad), is a truck driver so he travels all over the place and has many relationships in his life. He recently had a relationship with a neighbor of my brothers, that ended nastily as of what Jim says.  A few days ago, Bobby (my brother) started receiving these text messages from Jim saying that he was going to end his life because of the end of his relationship with Amber (Bobby's Neighbor).  Not sure if he actually attempted or it was just all talk. Jim refused to answer the phone when I called and never answered my text messages either.  All of this was tearing me apart inside and out, I have cried more than I wanted to. Some of which may be hormone related!   Jim finally started texting me last night, he said that Amber was being mean and he just didn't care anymore. I simply told him that I loved him and needed him and asked him not to try to do anything like this again.  He sent me a picture text of an alien named Paul, who said 'F- it!'  Well that was it for me, I was bawling at this point. I asked him what the hell I did to him to deserve to be treated this way. He apologized in his own way, by saying he loved me and I didn't do anything wrong. He also explained more rationally how he had been feeling about his break-up with Amber.   I will continue to have a relationship with him but I will not let him hurt me the way he did this time, ever again. I will not pay any attention to his rantings about his ex or if he starts talking about hurting himself again. I do not want to be hurt again, it was a cry for attention, he wanted to hurt Amber and he didn't care that he was hurting myself or Bobby either.

On a happier note, My husband finally was promoted in his job! Ron just started his new schedule today, normally he would have the day off, but until his old position is filled he will have to cover for a while.  We are all excited for this new change and I know he is going to do so well!  My daughter, Jolene is in the 3rd grade and doing very well so far! I love how much she enjoys school and hope she never loses it! Sam just turned 4, had his tonsils out and started dance classes this year! Both kids are doing two classes, Jolene Ballet and Jazz, and Sam will be doing Ballet and Tap.  So far my pregnancy is going really well, I have not had much morning sickness at all. That did not start until my seventh week and is mostly nausea, very little vomiting has occurred!  To backtrack a bit I had fallen off the wagon so to speak with my diet and weight lost and gained a substantial amount of weight back, at least to me it is.  So I have a lot of hard work ahead of me, I am going to start more pregnancy safe exercise activities to help maintain and focus on portion control as well.

Well I think that pretty much everything that has happened for the past 7 months! I hope to continue to update, might make it a goal to do once a week and go from there! Love to all!

Spiritual Beginnings

So I have never been a very religious person, I do believe in God, but never really found a way I was able to explore this or how to be close with God.  Back in 2010, I bough the book Eat Pray Love, by Elizabeth Gilbert.  And I instantly fell in love with the book and the notion of yoga and meditation. Although I never really explored any further into it not really sure of the reasons. Well I started to read the book again after getting back from a friend how had borrowed it. And now I am even more interested in Yoga and Meditation. I need to get myself to a book store to get some books on both subjects. I have the Wii fit plus and I use that every day, at least now I am back at it again. And I am using the Yoga moves on it. I do pretty well with most of them, need more practice on others. So I am very excited about starting this spiritual journey and wonder What everyone else does or does not do when it comes to their spirituality or religious back ground? Well it is time I went off to practice my Yoga and other exercises. I will try to publish more later or even tomorrow. Thanks For reading ;o)

I'm Still here!

I want to apologize for dropping off the radar for a few days, been sick and just didn't have the ability to post or anything. Ever find it difficult to get back into the swing of every day life when you haven't been able to function due to illness or other interruptions of life?  So my husband and I haven't had much time for each other due to us working, kids, and other things going on.  I mentioned this last week, that we had to work on our relationship because I refuse to let us drift apart and our marriage be ruined. He agreed with me but there still hasn't been much done to fix the problems we are having.  I know it takes time to repair the drifting, non-communication and what not, but I am little frustrated by it.  Just need to keep trying to reconnect the way we used to when we first started our love story, that romance and passion I never wanted to lose but somehow it did along the way.  My husband and I met online via Myspace, oddly enough I do not even go there anymore.  I had a few people send me messages and usually unless I know you, I do not write to you or allow to be on my friends.  The first guy, I started talking to was funny and nice and we really seemed to click.  Then my husband starting writing me and at first I wasn't going to add him but decided to try it.  At first he seemed a little forward and pushy and I wasn't sure if I wanted to get to know him. The other guy and I stopped talking for some reason or another.  So my husband and I were able to get closer and finally we decided to meet, it was on May 22, 2007.  We decided to meet at Pizza hut, I know not that most romantic of choices but still it wasn't bad.  I was so nervous walking up to his car, which was easy to spot as his was the only New York License plate there.  He stepped out of the car and a smile instantly hit my face, but I was still shaking like a leaf on the inside.  We went inside and it took a while for both of us to open up and be comfortable, but we really seemed to hit it off. After we ate, we decided to take a drive. We both hopped into my car and I took him around some of my favorite places to go, one of them happened to be the bridge in North Newport, we sat and talked for a while.  Then we went to my friends place to pick up my daughter, and then I dropped him off at his car.  Just as I was getting into my car, he grabbed me and kissed me, taking my breathe away.  From that moment on he had my heart and soul, and we have been together ever since.  For months he would drive down to see me every few days, even if it was only for a few hours and then go home to work the next day. Finally we decided to move in together, at first we were going to have him come down to Claremont, where I lived.  But his house wasn't selling so we decided to have me come there, which is how I came to be in New York.  It is a beautiful town and its taken a lot of adjusting to not have my friends and family close by. But I do not regret a moment of my decision because I have a wonderful home, and family here and some pretty terrific friends as well.  I miss my hometown and especially all the people in it, but I do get to visit them from time to time.  I had moved to New York in November of 2007, and I found out that Jaunary that I was expecting my son.  We had planned on Marrying the summer of 2008 but due to my son's arrival we decided to wait a little longer.  We finally were able to Marry, May 23, 2010, it was a beautiful day that I will never forget. I finally was able to pledge in front of my family, friends and the lord my love for this wonderful man in my life. Who not only wanted me but he also wanted my beautiful little girl as well.  Now to get back that connection that seems to have dimmed here and there over the years.  Because I am not giving up without one hell of a fight, because as many of you who know me I am a extremely stubborn person and it takes a lot for me to give up on something.

Smiling on the Inside

So I've been on a long road with my weight loss, yo-yo diets galore, and nothing ever seemed to stick. I always gained it back at some point or another.  Last January I looked into having a Gastric surgery, so I started the process then. I started on a high protein, low-carb diet, started exercising more and I started to loose some weight. While completing all the steps to qualify for the surgery, I had lost 20lbs and I felt really great about everything. So I finally had the surgery in July of 2011, where I had the realize band put it in. I was only in the hospital over night, and went home the following afternoon. I was sore for about a week or two, but otherwise healed pretty quickly. Adjusting to the 2 week diet of nothing but liquids grew to be a challenge but I made it through with flying colors.  Then I started back on mushy solid proteins, protein shakes, etc. The only form of exercise I could do was walking, so I tried to do that several times a day, a long with making sure I had about 60 fluid ounces to drink a day. So in all I have lost 70 pounds since my start in January, and I am extremely proud of what I have accomplished in such a short time. Sometimes I do not even recognize myself, I am in a size 16.  I do not remember ever being in that size in my adult life, I know as a teenager I hit that size maybe once.  But for the last month my weight loss has slowed down, and I am not exercising like I should be, hardly any at all to be honest.  I am not eating as much protein as I used to be, kind of slacking on a lot of things. I am not sure what has triggered this slow-down, and slip ups but I need to get myself back on track. I did not come this far to go back to where I was, never again will I allow myself to get that big.  I always ignored what I looked like, never really took in what I had done to myself over the years. But one day, a year ago I looked in the mirror and I mean really looked, and I was so disgusted by what I saw. And I never want to feel like that again, so I am determined now more than ever to get back into shape and live a healthy, happy life with my family. I never want my weight to be a health concern for me again.  Through the years I have suffered from depression, more than likely as a result of my obesity and a few other factors as well.  And though there are days I am sure I look like I am not the happiest person in the world, I know am smiling somewhere on the inside.  The love and support, I have received from my family through this whole process, has somehow brought us all closer and brought me to a happier and healthier place.  I could not have made it through any of this without my husband, children, parents, siblings, and friends.  I am blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life, who inspire me on a daily basis, so I want to take a moment to thank you all for being there for me and above all, loving me for me, no matter what.

Here We Go!

So Here we go, with my first blog post ever! Today has been a jumble of various ups and downs. For Starters my Daughter J, had to miss school due to her ear healing over the backing of her earring. I am finally finding the bottom of the laundry baskets, only to fill them up again. Our lovely dog Tippy, for some reason seems to think she needs to pee on everything lately and she never does this! Today her object of choice was a stuffed penguin that my mother had given to me, needless to say I was not impressed. Sam had an eventful day at Head Start, where he played with play dough and made a boy, a girl and mommy.  I also made extra crispy fish sticks due to my distraction of making this blog, go figure! I am usually pretty good in the kitchen when it comes to preparing just about anything, as long as I do not get distracted! At least I still love myself, family and life after all the ups and downs of today and every other day as well.  Patience is something I must improve upon, as of late, I've run out. Some days I have so much I am not even sure where it came from, other days it's like why can't I just calm down and wait? I had someone ask me once if I was a instant gratification person, and there are some definite cases were I am, others not so much.  If I do not have to wait, I do not see the reason for it.  Other times I can see the benefits of waiting, and do so the best I am able.  I can definitely say this blog is going to be an interesting one, as it will vary on topics often. And I am pretty sure you may get lost in my thought process too, as I do it all the time! I do hope that I can bring some joy, happiness and laughter to those who take the time to read my ramblings.